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This is how the death of a childsoldier friend saved my life…

Hello again,

In recent weeks, there have been hundreds of thousands of people on the streets in Germany, standing for a multicultural, colorful society. The background is leaked plans of right-wing parties and their justice-confirmed “fascistoid” leaders to deport millions of people in case they take over power.

If we ever wondered how Nazis could take over in the 1930s, now we can find out!

The difference today is that we are much more connected worldwide, even if media and demagogues try to instrumentalize the fears of people about this topic.

Though, there is one part I don't see being talked about at all: WHY do people leave everything they have behind, risking their lives and those of their children to get to Europe on an inflatable boat?

Today, I want to share with you why I left my home at the age of 15 to dare a new start without my parents in Germany. It was the end of the summer holidays, and my school friend Majid and I met again after weeks. We were 12 or 13 years old, and the typical question “how did you spend your holidays?” was the topic of our conversation.

“I was at a military camp the last few weeks!” He opened up to me. “That was so exciting! We learned how to crawl below barbed wire, how to clean a machine gun, and in the end, we were even allowed to shoot with a real Heckler & Koch G3!”

Wow, that was truly amazing!

In the middle of the Iraq-Iran war and after the recent revolution, I had been obsessed with guns and curious to know more about the camp. As he continued that the camp had been organized by the local mosque, I had an idea where this was going…

In the following weeks, he always told me about how celestial the singing in the mosque was, how beautiful the prayer, and how good the food.
A few weeks later, he shared with me one day that he decided to go to the front as a volunteer! I asked him, what he intended to do there? Was he really thinking he would become the hero of the war without military training after a little summer camp?

But his decision was made. He said we had the obligation to defend our fatherland, and there was nothing to discuss.
I remember how we took him to the bus on that Thursday afternoon. As a circle of school friends, we wished him well and were really excited about which stories from the front he would bring back and what a MAN he would become when he returned…

The reality was different: his body came back in a bag after just three days.

He died on the minefields just after arriving there; carrying a little plastic “key to paradise” as a necklace and being ripped by a mine.
Seeing how a part of him was missing while they put him into the ground was a real wake-up call for me.
I knew this was a game of the powers. The ones telling you stories about going to paradise, being surrounded by 72 virgins, dying as a martyr. While the others -be it US, Soviets, or Europe- sold both sides of the war weapons and counter-weapons trying to make the most possible profits.

A while after my parents offered me making it possible to escape before I fell under a general exit ban for young men from 15. I appreciated the honesty, that they led me decide as they wouldn't go with me. And I said YES.

It was tragic to die for something my friend Majid was manipulated to believe in as a child soldier. But possibly to die for something you don't believe in at all was just stupid.

My hands have not been made to kill but to give life, was what I thought.

And today the situation is no different. If we talk about refugees coming here at any price, we also have to ask who benefits from the conflicts they suffer from.

I am convinced that if wars become unprofitable, world peace will arrive the very next day!

And then, nobody needs to leave their homes if they have the chance to live in peace. Clear as the sky after the smoke from the war has blown away.

Now I want to know from you: how can we achieve this?

Love, peace, and unity,
Om

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Vox & Bruce
Vox & Bruce
2 years ago

Wow, Omid!

This is a touching story. My heart goes out to you in your pain in an experience that awakened you to your current values.

We appreciate that you keep sharing your message of love and peace.

Krissie
Krissie
2 years ago

Please continue writing your personal stories and your amazing music. I am touched… Thank you for sharing.

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Some mornings the order goes like this. A dance video. Then an execution. Then an ad for headphones. Then a bombed building. Then somebody’s beach photo. Then a name — a real person, arrested, whose family is asking anyone who will listen for help.


The timeline doesn’t sort by weight. It just scrolls.


And somewhere in that same stream, I’m supposed to post a track. Something with a pulse. Something you can move to.


I won’t pretend that’s easy. There is a particular kind of vertigo in writing a bassline in the afternoon and reading the news at night — the pressure from inside the country, the pressure from outside, and the feeling that any sound you make is either too small or wildly out of place. Some days the honest reaction is to say nothing at all.


But I’ve been making music long enough to know what happens when I choose silence. Nothing transforms. The heaviness just sits there and gets heavier.


Creativity has always been the great lever. Not because it makes anything prettier or easier to look at, but because it’s one of the few forces that can take a dark, unmoving emotion and give it somewhere to go — without lying about where it came from. That’s true for me, in the room, alone with the machines. And it’s true for the people who eventually hear it: some of them living this directly, some of them a whole continent away, wondering why any of it should concern them.



It concerns them because it always did. War and peace are not two separate weather systems. Creation and destruction run on the same energy, pointed in opposite directions — the same intensity, the same conviction, the same capacity to change what a place looks like. One builds, one erases. We choose, constantly, and mostly without noticing.


Everything that flows through one narrow channel eventually reaches all of us. That’s not a metaphor I invented. It’s just how the world is wired now.


So I keep working. Not as an escape from the news, and not as a comment on it either. Something else: a way of holding the weight and still insisting on movement, on rhythm, on a body in a room deciding to dance anyway. That insistence is not a small thing. In certain places, it’s the whole argument.


Project HORMUZ is also this — an attempt to be a voice for people who are being denied one. Through shutdowns, through censorship, through fear. I have no illusions about what a piece of music can do. But a sound can cross a border that a sentence cannot, and it can reach someone who was never going to read the article.


If it reaches you, then for a few minutes, they are not alone in this.

Some songs are written. This one broke out.


After “How to Keep an Open Heart in Hell,” I said that creativity has the power to push a sound through a wall of concrete. This is that sound. A track born entirely in Persian, out of everything I could not say any other way about what has been happening to Iran this year.


We Love Life, They Love Death

Listen to “The Endgame” on Bandcamp


That is the whole song in one sentence. It is the oldest divide there is — and it is exactly the line running through this moment in Iran’s history. A regime that has built its power on death, standing against a people who simply want to live: to dance, to sing, to raise their children without fear. The game does not go on forever. It comes to an end, and everyone gets exactly what they stood for.


How It Came Together


For a long time, a sound had been circling in my head that I couldn’t quite place. Then anger and creativity collided, and the question became almost absurd: what would it sound like if Rage Against the Machine, James Brown, and The Chemical Brothers had a musically illegitimate child?


I called Anja Arnold — my favorite guitarist, and a fellow spirit from The Exile Orchestra. On the very first take, recorded on nothing more than my mobile setup, she threw down riffs other guitarists would kill for, almost as an afterthought. The drums came from KJ Sawka, whose live drum’n’bass and breakbeat playing I’ve admired — and looped on stage — for years. Everything else I played myself: trumpet layered over trumpet until it built into a James Brown-style brass section, bass laid down on keys.


The whole production came together in three nights.


The hardest part wasn’t the music. It was the Persian lyrics. For weeks they sat on my chest like a stone — until suddenly they didn’t. They broke out of me in a single wave, all at once, like something that had simply been waiting for permission.


Listen and Support


“The Endgame” is out now on Bandcamp. Every cent from this track goes directly to people affected by the violence in Iran.


If this song moves something in you, consider owning it — not just streaming it. It’s a small way of turning sound into support.


Listen to “The Endgame” on Bandcamp


We love life. They love death. Let’s make sure the world knows which side wins.


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